I’m not myself
I’ve been very troubled lately. I have become this person whom i cannot recognise. I’ve changed so much over the years and at this point, I’m not liking who I’ve turned to. Its kinda depressing actually to not like the person you are or the life you’re living. But I feel so helpless, its like I am stuck and trapped in this. Its suffocating me and I really want to break free from this feeling. I’m terrified. I see myself struggling so badly and almost drowning in sorrow and I have this bad feeling that its going to get worse. I’m terrified of the future and what is to come. I long for the happy times where life was much simple, less depressing and there was more to look forward to everyday. Perhaps its the pressures of working life and being too tired and exhausted daily to venture out. I feel as though i’m confined and living a solitary life where my only companions are my bed and my laptop. It’s a mundane and scary life. What is happening to me?
